Tuesday, January 21, 2014

a brilliant voice....and no one knows

I find myself going in a million different directions...just when you thing you find where you belong something drops in your lap that tells you this is defiantly where you need to be. To add to that you have a child who is so talented and doesn't know it and unwilling to hear that the talent is there. We have a daughter who we would go to the ends of the earth for exposing her AMAZIng vocal talent to be found.  It isn't just a parent saying that our daughter is good.....she is really GOOD!!
What saddens me is that she LOVES to sign but she doesn't want anyone to know???? WHY NOT? She can sing an ADELE song like she owns it....why doesn't she want anyone to know? I can't grasp this....she is at her most happiest when she sings why does she hide it?

Monday, January 13, 2014

The Mom in the mirror.............BUTTe Friends are the best..





I remembered tonight the many nights I cried wondering who I am and what direction I need to go in.  I fell in love a million times from the age of 11  and up...I experienced things that I would die if our daughter lightly threaded. 
However our daughter cried to me tonight about challenges that shes experiencing and I was NOT prepared for.  I found my self putting my therapist face on rather then the parent ......
why I did this is because I know the parent in me would be no good to do....the therapist in me would be better. Inturn, this is very detrimental to my relationship with my daughter because I cannot be her therapist and parent at the same time.....I am in a "conflict of interest" situation. 

The more I thought about all of the stuff I'm starting to go through I think about who I and what brought me to this...who and what pushed me to direct to behavioural health .........well I'll tell you

I give KUDOs to the Dana Harrison who laughed at me because I bumped into a car to avoid getting beat up, I now sit on a Anti-Bullying task force.  As well as Jennifer Vanswearingons who forced me to be a better person and not bulling and degradation. 
I thank the Science teacher who was willing to give more then 5 minutes of his time and I am sorry I do not remember your name.  The Shelly and Shawn Lamere who hated me to the ends of the earth, I read alot and found that you've both become amazing individuals. 
But most of all, who loved me then liked me then hated me and who knows what was next....the most amazing woman I would love to give tribute  to is Kris Reynolds.  May she rest in peace....I get it.........it was the times. 
I thank the following amazing women  and Men
Jennifer Evens
Melanie Dodge
Trina Northey 
Stephanie King
Lori Martin
Daniel Ranier
Shawn Erickson
Dani  Case 
Robert Poppleton-10 folds

who made a difference in my life to some huge aspect that made me who I am today. There is no way I could of done with without you.  Melanie you are my one and only.......... 
you complete me.:0))))..........


Deana.......

Friday, January 3, 2014