The eyes......and of course the Pinky Swear

you can tell a lot from what a person's eyes.  Today I made a connection with a friend I never thought I would experience in a million years.  The crazy thing is we are so different and  have such different aspects and opinions but when we just made that quick "hi how are you..you pinky swear" moment , it was truly a connection you rarely find in a persons life. 

you come across many people in your life often finding yourself thinking or over thinking about he or she or what might be they agenda they may have.  Today in society there isn't a safe place, you have to be about your self but it's defiantly the greatest feeling when you have that pinky swear moment and you know your friend is right there with you. 

thank you for giving me that trust, that amazing friendship that you've allowed me to experience that I know my words are safe with you.....the eyes told me so. 

a brilliant voice....and no one knows

I find myself going in a million different directions...just when you thing you find where you belong something drops in your lap that tells you this is defiantly where you need to be. To add to that you have a child who is so talented and doesn't know it and unwilling to hear that the talent is there. We have a daughter who we would go to the ends of the earth for exposing her AMAZIng vocal talent to be found.  It isn't just a parent saying that our daughter is good.....she is really GOOD!!
What saddens me is that she LOVES to sign but she doesn't want anyone to know???? WHY NOT? She can sing an ADELE song like she owns it....why doesn't she want anyone to know? I can't grasp this....she is at her most happiest when she sings why does she hide it?

The Mom in the mirror.............BUTTe Friends are the best..

I remembered tonight the many nights I cried wondering who I am and what direction I need to go in.  I fell in love a million times from the age of 11  and up...I experienced things that I would die if our daughter lightly threaded. 
However our daughter cried to me tonight about challenges that shes experiencing and I was NOT prepared for.  I found my self putting my therapist face on rather then the parent ......
why I did this is because I know the parent in me would be no good to do....the therapist in me would be better. Inturn, this is very detrimental to my relationship with my daughter because I cannot be her therapist and parent at the same time.....I am in a "conflict of interest" situation. 

The more I thought about all of the stuff I'm starting to go through I think about who I and what brought me to this...who and what pushed me to direct to behavioural health .........well I'll tell you

I give KUDOs to the Dana Harrison who laughed at me because I bumped into a car to avoid getting beat up, I now sit on a Anti-Bullying task force.  As well as Jennifer Vanswearingons who forced me to be a better person and not bulling and degradation. 
I thank the Science teacher who was willing to give more then 5 minutes of his time and I am sorry I do not remember your name.  The Shelly and Shawn Lamere who hated me to the ends of the earth, I read alot and found that you've both become amazing individuals. 
But most of all, who loved me then liked me then hated me and who knows what was next....the most amazing woman I would love to give tribute  to is Kris Reynolds.  May she rest in peace....I get it.........it was the times. 
I thank the following amazing women  and Men
Jennifer Evens
Melanie Dodge
Trina Northey 
Stephanie King
Lori Martin
Daniel Ranier
Shawn Erickson
Dani  Case 
Robert Poppleton-10 folds

who made a difference in my life to some huge aspect that made me who I am today. There is no way I could of done with without you.  Melanie you are my one and only.......... 
you complete me.:0))))..........


Deana.......

EMCO Cutting Show January 2014-Kaitlynn is doing so good!!

We are so proud of her!!

Look at her go!!

my husband ...still my hero

If you only knew how much I love you....you are my life...my Hero

WOW there is really someone who cares......

You go through life amazed at the people you come across, others wow you and then others break your heart.  We are an outgoing fun family, there's no doubt about it we know alot of people but there are very few I can ever call my friends. there aren't very people who would be there "for reals" when you need them.  Today....a friend proved to me.....no matter what we've been through no matter how bad it might have ever gotten she came today to share the joyous moment with me with kailtynn.  She didn't' come alone....her husband came, her best friend came, her son came and her brother came.   They didn't have too...they didn't even have to like it. The point is , they were there and were there because they cared and I could see that.  Out of all the people who have crossed my path and promised me they'd be there when I needed them, I didn't even tell her I needed a friend...but I really did and without her even knowing....she was there for me too.
My heart is heavy today, not only with the triumph of our daughter but the compassion this one person showed me in one day she had not only for my daughter, but for our friendship.  Thank you and please remember you are loved and appreciated!

With love
Deana

Rain Rain Rain and what about those less fortunate

So tonight I am sitting her at the very edge of my garage door opening thinking of the very thing most aren't thinking of....how are the homeless doing?  As much as we LOVE this rain, the cold weather the running water for our environment, has anyone stopped to think about how the homeless is handling this. We take this type of awesome weather for granted because we don't have to live with it just like we don't have to live with the heat like our homeless does.

I won't deny I am loving this amazing gift of water to our local community, it has certainly eliminated drought from our region.

So having said that the rain brings me out to the edge of my garage door opening and makes me think. there are so many many things to think about, things  to plan...things to prepare for.  In what aspect of life do you get to make those dire strait to reconcile issue desiccan?  is waiting for a tragedy long enough?

I think it's important that today we stop and think bout other people than ourselves and remember even in the winter in Arizona people suffer like they do in the summer and our help is desperately needed.  

When was the last time you helped the less fortunate?