OMG look at us...........True souls!

 

Two women in my life who touched my soul....they touched my soul like no one EVER has. Us three shared a connection ...we could relate to our day to day goals........brainstorm, never judge, always support.  I had the pleasure to watch these two women grow into amazing professionals.  I will never forget our mandatory coffee time every morning ...this prepared us for the day ahead, we knew we had each other to support , to cry to, to never judge even if our mood was icky. We smiled every day and if we didn't smile we cried.  We knew that no matter what it's us, we were what was going to make it work because we trusted each other, we talked even if we were mad , we cried even if we were embarrassed and solved when we were unsure. 

These women have been the more amazing, intelligent, sincere and truthful individuals that I have ever had the pleasure.  I love you and I thank you for allowing me to be a part of your lives. 

 

You two ROCK!!



Daily unfolding.............

Daily we expect things to improve or just amazing things to happen. Daily in my life amazing things happen....no so much for me but for others in my life. Other days it just doesn't turn out the way you want or expect.  I'm on such a unique journey, the people who've already come in and out of my life are extraordinary in there own way I am at awe with what happens.  No matter how much we think we know about ourselves or someone else, tomorrow always surprises us with the worse or best outcome. We watch our children grow up and the challenges they face and the support we give as parents can be rewarding.  We also watch our children fail but continue to give the support they need, ....life lessons.  I wonder how many of us think to ourselves "when do I get a break" or "when will they get a break".

I am very fortunate, and I am so grateful for what I have, I didn't have ALL I wanted growing up...but I always had what I needed.  I've taught my children to respect those who are less fortunate and to give when you can.  I hope that they've learned that there is always someone worse off than we are.  I will be the first person to offer a ride to a stranger, or hand a homeless person a bag of food.  We will be the ones you will see giving as much as we get, it's just who we are.

Our daughter and sons are growing up so fast we are missing so much of their lives.  Kaitlynn lives in the same home and I feel that I blink and she's another 2 yrs in.  This last 2 months she grew another inch so that puts her taller than me at 12yrs old.  I feel some days I am in a whirlwind continuing to be the best mom I can be the best wife I can be and now I get to be a Grandma....WOW...........I get to love and cherish my son and his child.  I am in a place in my life I still won't believe even when I'm standing there looking at him and her.   A blessing in itself. 

Everything happens for a reason............

Since I took my new job I have thought every day that everything happens for a reason.  I truly live by that and every day it proves me the same.  I have had the opportunity to work with an individual who not only is outstanding but an amazing strong woman.  Over the years you have your mentors, your idols  and those who you've learned from and say forever you will remember them because they taught you something. 
Today, without anyone know .......even her I learn from her every day. She walks with the greatest of self respect, shows her du-diligence, remains strong, politically correct and show's every day something I need to learn.  It is rare you come across individuals who make such an impact on your life. 
I have evaluated my years and I have to say that I haven't come across such an amazing woman. 
She will be my friend, my colleague and my teacher not even knowing it. 
I am so grateful I have her to vent to;  express my concerns even when it jibberishhhh...I know I'm going to get a solid answer, a laughing answer or just no answer but with a smile,

that is my answer.............

Everything happens for a reason.

They Raised the bar for all of us........you won't be forgotten

These last 4 months have been not only life changing for me but total eye opening for me. A colleague who I became a great friends with recently  displayed his bravery of life changing decisions.  This not only left me envious of his travels but his dedication to his world that he would leave a job he loves to complete his dreams, his 'bucket list".  However I don't think he's old enough to have that bucket list. he hast he brightest love and dedication. 

I have had the amazing opportunity in the last four months not only to work with a strong, dedicated company but to stand beside outstanding individuals who I call "team" .  Relationships are being built, NOT an easy task. Trust is created along with excitement and motivation to move forward.  What others might of thought of this organization it is so not true, so misunderstood.  Today, I carry such a proud respect for those who fought and hung in there through trials and tribulation.  You are the true hero's.  However, today, new hero's are being created to stand next to you, to learn from you and build from your outcomes and experiences good or bad, you all are our HEROS!

This might sound crazy to a stranger who reads this., I want you to understand an organization near destruction, it was those who stayed and fought who will be remembered and who raised that bar for all of us.

Committment and questions...............

It is a fact that the scariest thing in a person life is commitment. Whether it's a marriage to a man, a marriage to a home or a new vehicle, they are all investments and you work to make them all happy and working right.  I talked to a friend the other day and she was torn...torn between 2 individuals in her life who mean so much and just didn't know which direction to go in.
As a woman you find that you want to reach certain goals in your life ...it doesn't matter what they are you set them for yourself. but once they are set you must reach them or you feel you've failed your self.  In my friends situation she's been married for many years and she's made decisions that affect her family but this time it's about her and she chose happiness. 
There are so many individuals out there today who aren't able to make those decisions, and I think you need to be in a certain place in your life to just say "it's my turn".  God knows I've been through trials through out my life and I can remember the day I decided it's my turn.  From that day forward I made decisions to benefit myself as well as my children.  Some may not have been the best but I believed they were the right ones. 
Many days I recall all these days and years..questioning myself ...........wondering if I've done the right things over the years. when I cried, did I cry for the right reasons?.  When I fought, was the fight a winning battle, when I loved, did I love the right people?
 There are many individuals in my life who I care about and I worry about. Many today have come back and just said "thank you".  That helps me realize the tears the battles and the love wasn't wasted.

It was heaven to me....

I am not a religious person, I have no dedicated path I'm on when it comes to my spiritual self.  However, I do believe in GOD an deep down I believe the good people do go to a better place when they die, I simply believe it's their conscious they die with.

Having said that (which could lead to many more discussions) today I experienced my heaven.  I decided to take our daughter and a friend out with my mother, meeting my father and husband. We got on our boat and headed up the Colorado river. I'f you've ever experienced the river from fishers landing you know what I'm saying.  the wind blew my hair back as I good in the deepest breath of the river aroma and probably a few Gnats in the meantime.  I closed my eyes (after I knew the girls were ok) and enjoyed the air flowing as we moved up river.  We arrive approx 5 mile sup and it was amazingly gorgeous.  There was no one at all in this area, it was quiet and very calm. I took a couple deep breaths, felts the sun on my face and listens to the giggles of the girls.

after a LONG week, this was my heaven.

Chapter 20?

I am not even close to starting  chapter 1.  I promised myself when I am done with college I would write a book, it would not be in correlation of my blog, I don't keep up with my words but I have feelings and  experience I feel others could benefit from.  Tonight was an a amazing experience for me, if you know my my career is so important me, I am driven to succeed.  I work hard to support those who work for me while continuing to lead in a direction of success for all of us.  We supported each other tonight, even after a long day of work and dedication to our members, we still came out and celebrated.
Amazing people who work for me and who I work for.....I am so proud to be a part of the team and I honour to continue the support and motivation that we've had to this day. There's no I in team

Alot in our lives have changed since I last wrote on my blog...I couldn't even start to catch up.  However in the same sense I will keep up.

Chapter 1 will start Feb 2015  "The beginning of What"