Life Time friends- Melanie and Trina

Holy Cow, I have Life long friends!!

So check this out...the morning of  July 3rd this year we had just woken up and we're enjoying the MT air and chilling in our RV........all the sudden there is s strange woman knocking on our door and says "DEANA is this YOU" LMAO

I almost died but when I realized who she was (took 2 seconds) I jumped up said OMG and ran out the door. My husband was probably wonder WTF it's 8:30 in the morning!!  Best surprise EVER!!

Melanie my dearest Melanie........out of EVERYONE in my life you and I experienced triumphs we probably don't want to relive...things we regret and embrace at the same time. You are such an outstanding individual, strong, determined, not letting anyone get in your way, kinda like how we were growing up...you have come so far and  accomplished so much I am so excited for you and your future. You are going to be greater than you ever imagined.

And then we have My Trina.....she who I listened to more than she thinks I did.... who I admired just as much and envied at the same time growing up.  I learned that the weekends we'd go out as teens the next week she'd be grounded. She told me that pattern happened quit frequently when we were teens~

 It was great to spend time with her and bond.  My sister was there with us and laughed at how we acted the same way together on these days as we did 27 yrs ago.  we laughed and just had a swell of a time.

Trina spent 3 days with us, my mom LOVED having her,  I hated thinking I was going to have to leave again,,  but we embraced what we could. We even took a nap together............shhhhh don't tell anyone!

We stayed up with the girls the first night  until 1am playing UNO and making shadow puppets on the wall! Most fun I have had in forever. I miss you tremendously Trina and Hope you can come to AZ soon!!

Slumming in Butte

On this night our goal was to experience all of Butte's historical places to drink...historical and modern I guess. In addition to the Scoop, we went to Pissers in Walkerville, MT and that was pretty cool, they have Tons of Nascar memorabilia all over and I ended up running into an old friend Shawn K. Lewis.  Not sure at this point how my husband was feeling through all of this. I know my dad was having a great time...  If the situation was reversed, not sure  how I would feel either. But he got a good taste of where I grew up!! I even bought a Pisser's  sweat shirt. I'm excited to wear it this fall/winter when we're on the bike!~ Right now it's 109 here in Yuma so sweat shirts are put away.

The Party Palace was exciting as well, I remember this being a drug store when I was growing up, so for the corner to be a different environment was exciting to learn. 

I ended up reuniting with 2 old friends, it was funny how people recognized me but wasn't sure! There was one who we just kept looking at each other and thinking i know him i know her...........well we did indeed know each other from high school and he knew my sisters. it was fun experiencing all of this stuff.  Today it's a bar I can relate too, It's fun, great people and maybe a bit dangerous for some people but it was great to be there, I just wish i could of met with more people I knew who are still in Butte. 

From the Party Palace we walked up the HUGE MOUNTAIN to Maloneys! Yes to me it was a Mountain because we do not have hills in Yuma, AZ.  I haven't walked Butte streets for years and forgot how challenging it is.  That sounds bad but you all get it.....

At Maloneys I met Charlie, he was super awesome. When I asked to take his picture and to pose he wasn't having it so I expressed that I would just photograph at random, he was ok with that as long as he didn' t  know.  

I LOVED Maloneys, it was so much of my heritage..........then I realized they had thongs for sale....I struggled with that! HA  thank you Charlie for being so awesome!!   You can see the items for sale behind charlie......Aside from that they had some great decor in the bathrooms (wink)

All in all we succeeded to have a TON of fun! thanks to all of who who I reconnected with and the bartenders who put up with my shenanigans. I had a blast! 

The SCOOP in Butte, MT

For the 4th of July this year I went home to Butte, MT and spend almost a week there seeing friends and family. It was an amazing trip for me mostly because my husband was able to finally see where I grew up. But more than anything, it brought me back to my roots and I was able to understand and appreciate more where I grew up and where I am from, I am a Butte Girl and that I will honor from this day forward.  

One thing on this trip we did was what my  mother calls slumming....it cracks me up but it sure isn't CLUBBING....So in Butte I guess it is slumming.  I slummed a lot as a teen so this night was particularly exciting for me because I not only went slumming with my husband and my dad I for the first time slummed in Butte legally. YES I slummed in Butte as a teen and got away with it!! 

Not totally proud of my teenage shenanigans but this gave me the opportunity to see where our City of Butte has come in 27 yrs.  I don't remember if I ever slummed at the SCOOP but on this night we did.  It was a great time because of the future new owner who we met.  John Anderson....

John has this dream to buy the SCOOP and bring back BUTTE...... but a more cultured to TECH Butte. He's reinvented the back where you have an outside bar and a bbq along with a volleyball court. I was impressed.  John is 26 yrs old and has a dream, a dream to make Butte Better!!  Some of you might think that building a bar better may not be the best for Butte, ...........This is the SCOOP, part of Butte everything! The SCOOP must not ever go away but be better! 

Then I looked up~~ I couldn't believe it there was signed money on the ceiling...Well I knew exactly what I needed to do....sign some money and stick it on the ceiling!! 

 This was a fabulous time and experience talking with John and I hope the best for him and his business partner! I am looking forward to returning and spending more time at the SCOOP Legally now! 

Ha! Tap Er' Lite

what today brings to my life

Happy Fathers day to my husband Eli...a man who is an amazing father!

 but to just bring myself back in time a bit....I didn't really grow up with a father who I was close too..yes I know who my dad is and yes I know he's the man who was married to my mother when i was conceived but we've never had the connection a father and daughter should have. I say that now because I see Kaitlynn and Eli and I love that they connect and they are so close..  I look at how my husband and daughter engage and I am so super excited they get to experience the real thing.  

DON"T get me wrong, it's not perfect they are not always seeing Eye to eye shes' a teenager now....but that is part of it right? parents are suppose to parent no matter what and one thing that we agree on as parents is the protection of our daughter. ( I might be a little more protective).  Eli is so patient and gets her....they laugh, have the same likes and are SO MUCH LIKE each other in so many ways and I love it!  they can be at the other end of the house playing their video games yelling at the tv, each other or just yelling and laughing and believe it or not that gives me tons of joy...I smile and so glad Kaitlynn has that. 

In addition to this post I'd like to give a huge shout out to the man who stepped up when he didn't have too..  Today we laughed about those times but it's a serious issue and I take his dedication seriously, Greg , thank you for being there for me as a teenager, kicking my ass when I needed it the most and being there today to not only STILL take that role on as a father but to be the most amazing grandfather to Kaitlynn that she can ever have. You are a gift from GOD for Us and I love and appreciate you.  

Tap're Lite

Endurance training is kicking my ASS!!

Each weekend for the last  6 weekends I lavish in carbs and drink and enjoy each moment....... and then Sunday night comes along and I dread tomorrow! 

http://www.bragincyuma.org/

kicking my butt! 

Each monday I know I have to fulfill my commitment to work out Monday -Thursday.......not even work out but to attend my SPARTAN endurance training. it's not your regular work out .....well for me it's torture it's hard core cardio hard core weight training, wall jumping lunge torture and a full of completing a workout. 

OK I SWEAT but never look this good doing it..........

my back hurts, my arms hurt, most days I feel like i'm dying and my knees.,omg my knees.......

and then I found www.kttape.com/

This is the best thing since Swedish fish was discovered. I can read over and over how this stuff works but I don't get it but I feel it and it works.....amazing product, i feel the outcome but still can't understand how it works.  

Anyways, it's Sunday and tomorrow I start  a new week--6th week in the class and I HAVE to over come the 4 ft wall...

It's going to rock because I'm going to crawl the wall this week!!

WTF just happened...???

WTF just happened to my life????

It's been 5 wks and it feels like 5 yrs since I became unemployed!  Shocker.........not really,.... reality.....reality hit hard when it happened. When you read those posts "open up and smell the roses" "reality just hit" no shit! Here I am.  

I went through the grieving process....shocked, sad, mad ----move on...blah blah blah.........
however there's a few people I can thank for this

STOMPING FEET...........dammit why do people have to be such assholes!!!! 

I just can't get over why people have to cause problems and not just do your day to day stuff and move on. go home happy and love your family and be true to your friends....why can't adults be adults and talk it out., why does honesty scare people? 

I think forever we'll always be asking these questions but it boils down to the facts about the person, who you are and who you feel you need to be. You may not care what other people think or feel but what's sad is that those who are nasty ugly people are ok with it themselves, they are able to fake that smile every day and know their hurting others and can sleep at night.

During my grieving process I wondered wow , what did I do wrong... is it me? I'm not perfect, yeah some of it is my fault, absolutely, I've made mistakes and I continue to learn by those mistakes but I know I extremely dislike unethical people and I can't stand those who are dishonest 

 I'm an honest person and even though it's the hardest thing to do is that I admit when I'm wrong and I take responsibility for my actions and I never in my life would want to hurt others. 

That,  I think is what people cant' handle. 

You don't need him to know your beautiful

So I spent some time with a friend today who broke my heart. We started having a "catch up " conversation , it was so great seeing her and she started crying.  I was shocked, this individual is always so happy and so amazing and now she's sobbing in my lap.  This woman has everything, home amazing children great friends and a husband of many years.  She cried to me ....and cried and cried, I didn't know what to do.  She then said to me ......"my husband never notices me" he never tells me I'm beautiful and never tells me I look nice " She told me she couldn't' remember the last time he said "you look nice today".  

I was very sad for her, this conversation triggered many memories I had but it wasn't about me.  She pondered on many different reasons why he may not notice her anymore.   They have been married for many years and she feels that maybe he just has become content.

I didn't know what to say to her to make her feel better........but I know what I would do in this situation.  I feel that in this situation when your man stops noticing you and stops complimenting you he's no longer looking at you. Contentment is minor  but when a man stops complimenting his wife, the woman he committed to love and adore for the rest of his life, only mean's he's done and really doesn't feel your beautiful and/or you look nice and all the rest is just to get through the rest of the day.

It's unfortunate but it's reality.  It's hard to hear, or even realize that the man you've committed to for so many years or so little years has stopped feeling that  your beautiful. Women need recognition from their lover, husband , partner ...soul-mate that they are still beautiful and loved. It's just what we need. You can be a CEO, a DOCTOR or WAITRESS ............women are built the same. No matter how strong we are or we portray to be we need to hear from you, it's what drives us to be better, happy and successful.

So I told my friend..........Fuck him.  forget him....Let him forget you because no matter with or with out him you are beautiful, others see you and even though he's your man, if he can't work it, someone else will.

She laughed,............


Then.............we cried!